5 days till T-Day

Woke up to the sounds of rain spattering against my window. The sky was gloomy, as if you took the sunshine with you. There was an ominous feeling in the air, like the city knew you were gone. Doubt slipped into my mind as I brushed my teeth... "maybe this is mother nature's sign telling me that this isn't a good idea" A storm was coming... I wanted to grab my phone and tell you but self-resistant was the stronger man today. There was many other things I wished I could have to tell you..."OMG, I think my boss stalks me on Facebook, he saw my depression reach out on Facebook. But it was nice of him to call though".."I DID IT OMGG I fucken did it, finally finished that yellow 19"..."faukk it was so awkward around him, it's like there's a glass wall in our way"... And how you ain't there to motivate me and keep me wake at night. I wanted you to be the first to know about my day. I thought of reaching for the phone ...But I never grabbed it. I wanted to see how my live would carry on if your presence suddenly disappeared. Day 1 was manageable... I wonder how Day 2 will go. How was your Day 1?

Mr.Gee