Unhappiness

Heyy whats up guys. Havent blogged in a while, mostly cause it hasnt been on my mind lately. Anyways spend 6hrs in the city yesterday with William and Derek, bumming around, buying dereks birthday present and sitting at maccas talking about memories and gossip. then we headed over to darling harbour to celebrated Dereks and Belindas birthday at Stacks Taverna Bar. It was quite nice, food was superb and waitress were really friendly. Then we bummed around darling harbour until 11:30. Most just talking and walking, taking photos. It was a good time but because there was so many of us, I didnt get to talk to everybody as much as I wanted to. Nevertheless it was a lovely night. Been stressed out these past couples of days cause of just life in general - uni, jobs, relationships. Uni finals are coming up and I feel totally unprepared :( especially with how my exam timetable is spaced out. 3 exams over 2 days. OMG kill me now LOL. got a quiz next week that I am totally not even ready for. Then there is the jobs, trying to balance 3 jobs at the same time is more difficult than I thought. practically have no weekends now. Must find new study times now, must sleep less and study more. I sort of have this feeling like its now or never. Like now is the time for me to commit in everything possible even if that means losing sleep each night. Also im sacrificing my gym time so much, only been 4 times over the last 2 weeks :( but then I am sick right now, so yeah. Freaking getting these random chest pains, and apparently Raymond said his chest pain felt very similar when i described it to him :/ hopefully there is nothing wrong with me. can't be bothered to go to the doctors now. Dont have time. then there is the relationship aspects between certain people, just dont know what to do... Dont know wether to be the bad guy or try and patch things up. Freaking relationships. most fucken certainly not my strongest point. Sigh all these thoughts, my mind is constantly working itself. There is no more free time, even when we go out, all we talk about is uni or jobs or the future. I wish we can just talk about things that didnt matter like how we did when we were in high school. I feel like I am losing myself. The child-version of me.

Mr.Gee